Clinging to Thankfulness

Clinging. Literally. Because thankfulness doesn’t come all that naturally to me. My battle with anxiety has left me fearful and constantly alert to anything that will rock my world. This constant state of heightened senses leaves very little room for a thankful heart. And yet I am so very thankful for so much. I just forget it in the midst of the things that set my equilibrium off balance and send my panic into overdrive.

So here I sit on a Rainy Monday, burdened by stress and yet clinging to thankfulness. My gratitude will prevail today. It will. For just one small moment I will not let my brain take that away from me. So here, right now, are 25 things I am thankful for.

1. The baby nestled into my arms

2. A spirited little toddler who keeps me laughing

3. A life partner who gives me grace and sacrifices his own sleep for mine.

4. A warm home

5. Our new home

6. Preschool

7. Coffee

8. Warm showers

9. Comfy clothes

10. A car

11. Warm meals

12. Parents and in-laws who will bend over backwards to love and support us.

13. Friends who check in on me and pray over me.

14. The ability to take vacations

15. Health

16. Access to health care (physical and mental)

17. Clean living conditions

18. Books

19. Parents who paved the way for beautiful deconstruction/reconstruction of my faith

20. An education

21. Netflix

22. Sleep

23. A baby who takes a bottle

24. The opportunity to learn and grow

25. Grace